July 10th, 2012
|03:43 pm - Majority RulZ|
I haven't posted here in forever and don't know that I will be doing so since I'm mainly using facebook now, but I also don't want to put a link of my FB page on here due to virus/spam issues. Either way just wanted to see if this site was still up.
March 22nd, 2011
|02:31 pm - Writings of wringings of wranglings of the past|
Sometimes I realize just how much I let myself be hurt. What is sad is that regardless of how much I still hurt after 9 months, I still love her to my soul. I've never felt this way about anyone and I doubt I ever will again. It's not like I have pined away and acted all melodramatic for no reason. I truly tried to get over her and move on, not complaining.
It's not happening, not at all.
There is no mistaking the light one sees at dawn for the waning of the sun at dusk. She knew the sun had set upon what was once her life. A few years back, perhaps she could have changed such a thing, but now she felt too old, too feeble and too downtrodden for any response to the dilemma confronting her. It began when she was a child, in the wayward dreams of an innocent child. Fly away, ignore the screams which her mother urged her to keep secret. A few suspected, but none came to their aid. Maybe that was all for the better, as the social system of justice was as corrupt as the family it purported to save. And so she settled in her mind to become the strong one, to move on from this diseased place and time. Driven as a child, she would succeed beyond what those who grew up around her felt possible.
Electronic - Like No Other
Sometimes he feels so small
he turns to alcohol
She doesn't like the taste
but then it's better than his face
This connection will not mend
How I pray that you'll be happy
but you're in a downward trend
Leave this place and make it snappy
October 12th, 2010
I thought it was one thing to have an argument with someone you love, but when they essentially cut you off from their life completely...it's just a bit terrible.
To go from living with someone and planning on marriage to ignoring them, cutting off contact and moving away, I just don't know how it happens.
I don't let go of those I love so easily, though perhaps when I was young and even more headstrong I might have done so. I don't think there is anything I can do to get her back, I've tried for months now. Just leave her alone and see what happens I guess.
I know I deserve another chance at the whole thing, and for that reason I feel like I should just ignore her until she realizes that. On the other hand, when you are in love with someone it's a double-edged sword. You either follow your heart and try your damndest to make it work again...or you follow your head and leave it be, knowing how much it hurts to try and fix it when all you get is rejection.
Two years down the toilet. Wish I had known then what I do now. Isn't that how life is though?
"You have to be trusted by the people that you lie to, so that when they turn their backs on you you'll get the chance to put the knife in." -Gilmour, Waters
July 20th, 2010
Shit, I found out my cat has leukemia today. That pretty much means he's going to die soon, either by my hand, the disease or the clinic.
Always thought that I'm a strong guy when it comes to emotions and such but this is really a bummer for me. I've had him since I bought my house, since he was a kitten. Only 9 years old. I would love to just let him continue on and hope that he gets better somehow but they tell me that he might be in pain and we don't know it. I wouldn't know what to think about that except that the way he walks and cries when I touch him in certain areas makes me think he is hurting. Aarrgh.
June 3rd, 2010
Always been told that I’m great.
How hard is it for humans to tell the truth?
More specifically, how hard for me?
How much did I hurt?
How much did I hurt others?
Was it God’s Will?
No, it was mine. What a bastard.
That’s all I’ve ever done.
Selfish, yeah. And I didn’t care.
Consumerism at its best, I was the customer.
Misplaced emotions, have I ever known where to place them?
I’ve got it all, but I have nothing.
Small time hollywood star, in my own movie.
Even now, my pompous ass shows how I am.
Don’t delay your fantasy…I didn’t, but at whose expense?
A lying, selfish, depressed POS, that explains it all.
Solace in alcohol, solace in not facing the mirror.
I deserve a rapist status, for that is what I’ve done.
All in the name of God.
He’d spit in my face, I’ve already done the same.
A bullet in my head, and who would know?
Who would know what thoughts trailed behind?
My reckoning point left me in its dust, and I, the ONE, laughed.
That’s me, whoever “me” is.
Father didn’t want me, so who can I want?
Only my selfish self.
-For one who is nothing
May 26th, 2010
I like LJ way better than FB and MS. Stupid acronyms. Sad that most the kids these days know what the acs mean more than the word acronym. Either way it's keeping up with the best and worst parts of each other unless you have something to actually share.
In other news although I've read mixed reviews of Ironman 2, I think that the casting of Mickey Rourke is brilliant. I haven't seen it yet though. Lastly, David Lynch fan or not try watching Elephant Man and not shedding a tear.
April 16th, 2010
|12:39 pm - The smoking ban|
Going into effect May 1st, two weeks from tomorrow is the Michigan smoking ban. Opinions rage on this subject. Kent County in Michigan says they won't be enforcing this law in places that don't serve food. Ooh, those bad smoker-sympathizers. Well, actually they won't be enforcing it because the law doesn't provide for the money for the state/county to enforce it.
It's all fun and games to pass laws controlling what private businesses can and can't do, but where does the money come from to enforce all these laws? Out of our pockets, that's where.
Michigan is the ONLY state out of the 50 that hasn't shown economic growth. Perhaps if we stopped passing laws about texting and smoking and concentrated on the real issues, for instance the economy, auto industry (what used to be the biggest industry in the country, aside from oil) and unemployment, then we could actually accomplish something.
A couple of comments on the smoking ban from Mlive readers:
"Why do smokers and business owners feel that they have the right to push the healthcare costs of smoking-related illnesses on the taxpayers? That's the end result of smoking: it drives up the cost we all pay for healthcare."
Unfortunately this reader is likely correct that we will pay more for healthcare. Of course, that was also the reason for bikers to have to wear helmets...because it will drive up healthcare. Oh wait, except that in every state surrounding Michigan bikers DON'T have to wear helmets and it hasn't driven up healthcare. Also, the only reason why MY lifestyle should drive up your healthcare is if ours are somehow tied together, i.e. socialized, get my drift?
A couple of other interesting comments:
"It's called the free market. You know, the thing that took the US from a rinky-dink colony to the most powerful country in the world in about 100 years....
Some businesses are no smoking. If you want to not breath the nasty smoke, frequent them. If there is a nasty smokey bar down the road, don't go there! If the owner is happy with his profit margin catering to us nasty smokers, then so be it!
Nanny state has GOT to go!"
"As a smoker I only have one comment to make...If this is all about health then I believe the GOV. should also ban fast food joints and potato chips as I have noticed an extreme increase in obese people in our state, and if you don't think they will be a drain on health resources think again."
March 17th, 2010
|03:07 pm - Sick of people asking me for Killian's|
I'm really sick of people asking me for Killian's, then asking then asking how we can be an Irish pub when we refuse to carry it, then asking if we have any other Irish Red.
Firstly, Killian's is not red in nature. They add food coloring.
Secondly, it's made by Coors...in Colorado.
Thirdly, it's not Irish. I traveled all over Ireland and never saw it once.
If you want a true Irish Red, get yourself O' Haras Red or Murphy's Red. End of story and end of rant. Don't be beer ignorant on the Day of the Eire. Also, don't drink Bushmills.
Lastly, this part of the review by The Brothers Alstrom (who run put out Beera Advocate magazine) is a pretty good summary of Killian's.
Notes: Decent at best, very undemanding on the taste buds. This seems to be the beer for macro drinkers to think they are drinking a micro … I guess if that makes them happy that is all that matters, sadly some people think this is an import. Sometimes this is all bars have aside from the pale swill … call it a last resort beer.
March 16th, 2010
February 23rd, 2010
|01:37 pm - Woe Canada|
Lol. Caution for language.